I have recently been forced to make a few seemingly undesirable decisions, and am further learning to deal. That being said; some of the changes are bringing about large bouts of stress, and stress, for me, easily gives way to anxiety. I do suffer from a small generalized anxiety disorder, but wonder just how bad the idea of popping an occasional pill might appear to others around me. Would you think me weak for consuming an emergency Xanax or Lexapro to ward off the edge, every now-and-then? Would that automatically grant you feelings of superiority? Would it mean you're stronger? More resilient?
Should I care about what people nearby might think about this scenario? In short, no. But the truth is that I absolutely do. This world is filled with finger-pointing judgmentalists (yes, judgmentalists)--eager to pick at my flaws, and label me someone I more than know I'm not. My relationship with Jesus is solid, and forever shall said solidity remain. Despite this, however, I'm still nowhere near having all of my shit together.